Happy Easter 2013

We’re spending our Easter in the valley with our south Texas family.  Having a wonderful time and couldn’t be happier right now.  Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

I hate dumb females my ex dates.

I have yet another cyber stalker.  So she sends me a friend request on Facebook but then when I tell him about it she quickly deletes the request, blocks me, and then denies ever doing it.  Really?  He said he's dating a woman but I'm quickly thinking she's a young little girl.  Come on now, own your shit.  Another reason my decision came so easy.  SMH!

Man his life really sucks!

Took a break from blogging for a bit but I’m back online.  I was dealing with a lot of things and I wanted to make sure I didn’t jump on here to rant before thoroughly thinking about what I was going to allow to be public on my blog.  Then it hit me that I shouldn’t censor anything.  My readers enjoy this blog for the brutal honesty it withholds.  I give it to you raw & ugly and try to never sugar coat a darn thing.  So… here goes.

Lamonte went two months without seeing Makenna and just when I was completely fed up finally came clean that the real reason he hadn’t come to see her was because he was living with a new girlfriend.  Huh?  Immediately I thought this was the girl he was seeing during Christmas time that he wanted Mak to meet.  Nope, not her.  So then I thought maybe him and Bridgette were back together.  Nope not her either.  According to him this was another woman he’d been dating for 6-7 months.  This completely confused me because in the past 6-7 months I’d heard about three other women but never her.  In fact, just back in November he was still trying to hook up with me.  Just to clarify we did not hook up but he definitely tried a few times.  Anyhow, to hear that he had been with this chick as well the entire time was a huge shock.  Then he tells me that he’s now living with her like 10 minutes from my house.  Really?  And you couldn’t see your daughter not one time in the past two months?  You can imagine my frustration.  He brought all this up bc he wanted me to meet this woman and her kids so that Makenna could start coming over to their house.  I agreed against my better judgment but something still didn’t feel right.  I ended up talking to someone that is close with him about the situation and afterwards realized that it was probably better that Makenna NOT meet this woman or her children.  Lamonte does not have a very good track record so who knows how long he’ll be with this new one.  After all, just a few months ago he was head over heels about another woman and wanted Makenna to meet her as well.  Ugh!  So during this same week of finding out about all this I then find out he also now has another child with yet another woman.  No, not the one he’s living with now but someone else.  Makenna has a sister that was born in February.  Talk about a huge shock there.  With everything I learned in one week about him I decided that following our court paperwork was the best decision.  I went through a lot of emotions during that week.  I hated him, I was sad, I felt bad for the new child and her mother, and in a way I felt bad for Lamonte as well.  I know that sounds crazy that I felt bad for him but with another child now I just really don’t see how he ever plans on getting his life together.  I just wish he would wake up.  I told him I didn’t think living with this new woman was smart.  If he really loves her cool but why not live separately and prove to himself that he can survive on his own.  Instead he’s moved in with another woman so he can depend on her which unfortunately is what he ALWAYS does.  Ugh!  I could seriously shake him.  I don’t think he’ll ever find true happiness until he learns to do things on his own. 

So the conclusion to all of this is that we’ve now agreed that he will not see Makenna unless it’s on the days he’s allowed via the paperwork.  The new gf will not be involved for a long time and when she is, I will be meeting her first.  Surprisingly he completely agreed with me on that one.  We actually get along much better now that he’s on a schedule.  We stopped communicating outside of his visits with Makenna which has also helped.  Now when he comes over things are so much better.  There is a part of me that is still angry but I’m trying to learn to forgive.  You can see how unhappy he is now with his life and so it makes it easier to show some empathy towards him.  This was a man I once loved and while that is long gone I do care about his well being.  That being said, my daughter comes first and if he EVER hurts her I will have no problem making his life miserable.  Lol…yeah I get a little crazy when it comes to my baby.